Berating myself for overeating and for being overweight only served to lock my psyche into that behavior.
special…We all have a definition in our heads of what that means and when we don’t reach it, we feel like we have somehow failed.
I often thought that I had to come to terms with my emotions to stop bingeing. And to some extent that may be true. But when I discovered what really fueled my binges, the emotional piece sort of just took care of itself.
Not struggling with food has given me a new awareness of what it means to be healthy. I don’t have to be “thin” to be healthy or good looking. Health and beauty come in every shape and size.
… self control isn’t about forcing myself to eat the right foods and exercise more. It’s not about making myself feel guilty for eating too much or the wrong foods. It’s about allowing myself to function naturally, trusting that I have what it takes to love and nourish myself regardless of what anyone else says.
…when I find myself thinking how great I am because I ate well today, or having thoughts that I must be better off than someone who is still struggling with food, I stop and check myself. My value is the same whether I have an eating disorder or eat the perfect diet, whether I am thin, fat or in between. And this is the same for everyone…
…I stopped judging myself and started seeing my behavior for what it really was – a habit born out wanting to ‘fit in’ and the stress surrounding that. This was a giant first step in changing my life. If I can do this, you can too.