…I learned I didn’t have to eat out of boredom or emotional turmoil. I could choose to eat at these times, but I no longer felt compelled to. This was such a relief that I found myself not only more satisfied with food, but that satisfaction spilled over into my life in general…
special…We all have a definition in our heads of what that means and when we don’t reach it, we feel like we have somehow failed.
Not struggling with food has given me a new awareness of what it means to be healthy. I don’t have to be “thin” to be healthy or good looking. Health and beauty come in every shape and size.
…If being my best means that I am skinny, but my mind is constantly on my body and weight, how is that my best?
…emotions and feelings are very complex subjects, and trying to explain that fat is not a feeling just complicates things even more. Only by embracing my experience of feeling fat could I learn to recognize other emotions and get some meaning back into my life.
…I can still trust my body without expecting it to be any certain size. This attitude allows my body to function at an optimal level.
My body may have lumps and bumps, but it has kept me alive even when I tried to force it into someone else’s mold. It is perfect imperfection in its function and design and I appreciate every inch of it. It is the representation of me on this earth. And whether it is thin or fat or in between, I love it enough to present it to the world in the best way I can, but I respect it enough to allow it to look and function the way it was meant to