…..Once the ants were gone, it took a while for me to even want to be at peace again. Partially because I felt regret for acting so bad, and partially because it made my family uncomfortable and now they wonder if I will go berserk…..
Instead of honoring our body, we re-pay it for keeping us alive by hating it, being ashamed of it, and trying to starve it. No wonder we are out of sync!..this is a process, and there is no failure involved, only learning everyday.
The main thing to remember is when you recognize the failure, whatever that struggle may be, -don’t beat yourself up about it. Failure does not mean you need punishment, it means you need nurturing.
…I learned I didn’t have to eat out of boredom or emotional turmoil. I could choose to eat at these times, but I no longer felt compelled to. This was such a relief that I found myself not only more satisfied with food, but that satisfaction spilled over into my life in general…
…Being obedient in this way is the foundation of eating normally without having to worry about what to do when faced with chocolate cake.
I wonder sometimes what the actual turning point in my life was…the one thought, or attitude which changed my perspective from -I can’t, to -I can?
What I can accomplish is only limited by what is inside my head. Therefore, I cannot let other’s fears and anxieties cloud my vision.